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wishful thinking [27 Sep 2009|04:46pm]
wrote an e-mail to some girl that looks appealing to me, who writes in the same section I write in, in some website. here's hoping that she'll reply and be positive while doing that.
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Slow saturday [26 Sep 2009|07:06pm]
this has been quite a slow day. I posted a question on the ask_me_anything community last night right before going to sleep, and expected much more feedback than I did get, but it was good enough - gave me some good points for thinking, it kind of strengthen my ability to get forged infront of this thing. it's a girl that I've been having a crush on for the last 3 months.

I don't have energy to start writing about it, but she's... hard. not sure what she wants, or just sure that she doesn't want me. I have no idea. I'll write about it someday, maybe.

Yom Kippur eve is tomorrow, everything is a little gloomy. Kippur means no TV, no PC, no food. well, it depends if you're religious or not. it's a time for thinking, reading, going to synagogue, etc.

anyway, I'll go walk my doggie and then watch some football from the bundesliga.
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Pshew. [25 Sep 2009|03:19pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

Air Conditioner is working fine. just let it rest for a while, cleaned the shafts from dust, and it's doing its thing again. I lamented it too quickly I guess. well, goodie good. now it's friday, so I'm just lazying around. watched the first episode of "Flashforward", was kinda nice. I'll watch the next episode next week.

it's nice to write with no obligation, with no point, just a random update. wonder if I'll keep this up. this is what LJ is for, not just long-ass entries, but also the day-to-day minute-to-minute stuff. I've missed it, it's like an expanded twitter, yeah. hah.

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what a good way to start the day [25 Sep 2009|12:31pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

yeah, so my Air Conditioner just died. it works, but it doesnt emit any coldness. I'm addicted to it. god, now I have to make do with a fan, sit around without a shirt, and hope for the gods that this weekend + Yom Kippur wont be hot like hell. they're usually hot dry and annoying. somebody up there hates me.

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it's alive, ALIVE! [25 Sep 2009|02:35am]
I can't fucking believe this.

I just wrote quite a lengthy post regarding my Return to LJ, somehow firefox decided to fuck up the whole return party, the page went back and all the text flew right out of the fucking window.

well, It's fucking late and I'm not going to write it all again. but here's the short version:
I've been writing in my native language (Hebrew) more or less since abandoning this site. it feels much more genuine for me to express my thoughts and feelings in my mother language. that doesn't mean I dont write in english, I do, but it's a bit awkward for me to type in my personal thoughts in my LJ after so much years.

anyway, girls come and go but there are those special ones who always stay, and one of them is my exquisite friend whom I met here 4 years ago, that drove me into getting back into the business here.

It's really late now and my sweet bed is calling my name. I will try to update as soon as possible, might as well return to write here, it feels nice to write in english again, here, in LJ, the original home.
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[11 Apr 2006|07:44pm]
i'm 20 today!
today, i'm 20!

and lots of people said 'happy birthday!'

but some did not, how disappointing..

i guess that's how it works
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[08 Apr 2006|07:04pm]
i'm turning 20 this tuesday, on the 11th.

dunno really what to say. i've been in the army, and that is mostly my life. on weekends when i'm home, i meet friends and rest, mostly.

i've this friend who is going to be an officer in the army and is.. how to put it, kinda wealthy. so we usually dwell at his place, drink coke and eat nachos. and i love it that way. we speak alot about girls, history, money, politics and all that stuff. we're a bunch of good buddies and it's really nice to pass the weekends like that.

more than that,
lemmy kilmister of "motorhead", my favourite band, wrote me a note. it happened thanks to a great girl, that i got to know from here, who hangs around the rainbow gril and bar in L.A, where lemmster hangs out. she got him to pose with the note and someone took a shot of them. it made me REAL happy.

i also got a motley crue "Girls girls girls" t-shirt just now from a friend for my birthday. it's really sweet.

on another note,
nothing has changed between me and girls, it's all quite the same.. i kinda gave up on the whole thing. i mean, on trying. i'm still a boy, and i really like girls. they just don't like me (it seems.)
i've tried hitting on a few - resulted in a turn-down, which isn't fun.

there's emptiness in my life, more or less, but i find alot of things that are sweet in it. mostly simple things, music, moments, places, thoughts. just that..
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[06 Jan 2006|02:21pm]
sharon be strong.
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[10 Dec 2005|04:51pm]
whoa, long time no update here...

actually im writing another 'journal' kinda thing in hebrew somewhere on the net so i won't lie and it could also be a cause for the lack of attention given by me here to the lj..

not that it really matters anyway, it's not that alot of people read it.. it just pops up on their friends page.. and if they don't get to read it that day, they'll never know i've updated!

my life is basically devoted to the army lately, but i'm having a good time being a soldier, more or less. i like being on uniforms and feeling like a soldier. because i AM a soldier! heh.

i've been a corporal for 5 months now, and i cant wait to get the sergeant rank in august.

sergeant amir..

oh, and the ending of this song, is fucking AMAZING. supertramp are genius. i love them.
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[22 Oct 2005|10:49pm]
im just tired of this all.

everyone doing things and stuff while i sit at home and rot.

sometimes i really wish i could just demise.

there's so much rage now.
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[18 Oct 2005|06:08pm]
hello there, small, nice, LJ of mine...

i didnt update for quite a while, i know.. its the army..
well my father is doing fine, he's recovering from the heart thing.. he's adapting a healthier lifestyle now, ofcourse..

the army service got a little better in terms of getting home, i get to be home much more now, which is very good... believe me. i used to see the home like two times a month before. last week it's been one year since i've drafted to the IDF..

now i have two years remaining in the army, yay...

well not much to say really. im the same.. lately i've been going alot to hang out at my friends house, who is british and very rich. his father works in the real-estate. he has a really big house and a very big basement with a big tv and all. very fun, and we also share alot of interests, and he has a british accent whenever he speak english or hebrew and i love it.

problem is we hardly , if ever, get to have girls in his house.. he's likes girls just like me (and like all men) but unfortunately we don't get any. although he had a few experiences, two girls (!) in two different chances went down on him. fucking bastard.

lately i've started letting down on girls. i mean, i can't stop being attracted to girls, i LOVE girls, but i dunno, it seems like such a waste, because i never get anything, i keep getting pissed and depressed over it for the last 3 years (since i've started the lj, but basically more) and i don't get anything, and whenever i try to invest in a girl, she just spits in my face.. or so it seems.

so i dunno. my morale really went down. it seems like them girls never look at me, and all those jockeys and idiots, and UGLY motherfuckers, get more than i ever will. i'd love to find a girlfriend, and find real love, but i dunno, im turning 20 in april, and i'd want to experience something sexual with a female, although sometimes when i get really pissed and thing about it (like now, but not exactly) i think that maybe i'm not so emotionally ready for shaking anyone's tree.

eh, i dunno.. i think alot..
to all those who still read this lj, i love you! (:
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[06 Oct 2005|07:06pm]
so, my father had a heart attack two days ago. the doctors only found out today, when he went to the hospital to get himself examined. kinda strange. i'm kinda shocked. i mean, he's been smoking all his life, alot, and he's not thin, lately he started walking, i guess it's somehow related.

but i talked to him, he sounded perfectly fine to me, he's hospitalized for a few days and under surveillance, i'll go visit him tomorrow with my mom. he's in a hospital not far away.

being healthy is important. its amazing how you can't expect such things.
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shawarma is good [22 Sep 2005|08:40pm]

LJ Interests meme results

  1. autobahns:
    hmm, long roads, north germany, berchtesgaden, that shine in the summer sun, endless side-gas stations, where you can eat sausage and schnitzel.
  2. casino:
    well, casino's are cool, and a scorsese film with mobsters about them is even cooler.
  3. esquivel:
    hmm, lots of good music.
  4. great patriotic war:
    kill the fascist pigs who put their filthy legs in mother russia!
  5. king diamond:
    wheeeeeeawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! sleeplesssssss nights!
  6. michael schumacher:
    vroom vroom. best f1 driver that ever was, there is, and there ever will be. he's having a bad year, but it'll be good.
  7. old school metal:
    hmm, i love old school metal. with motorcycles, aviator sunglasses, songs where you can understand what the vocalist says, strong music, good riffs...
  8. saxon:
    good old school metal band (:
  9. the shadows:
    they rock. FBI makes me feel nostalgic everytime. reminds me 2002
  10. wwf:
    heh. it's fun to watch, i was a big fan when i was 10. now they've changed it to wwe...

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

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[14 Sep 2005|10:21pm]
argh. im so tired lately.

sleeping is so sweet. sleeping is sacred. a good sleep is such a valuable product. sleeping with the air-condition on, beneath the blanket.. so fun.. so good.. good night..

i rarely update anymore i know... (:
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[10 Aug 2005|09:02pm]

im still alive!
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[09 Jul 2005|09:32pm]
hm. yey. people are still reading my lj. to all the people who are my lj friends, even if i dont talk to you - i love you! :)

i am going back to the army tomorrow after a slightly long vacation. it kinda sucks. alot. what can I do?

whoa. if i could get a lap dance, that could make me enter base tomorrow with a smile on my face..
dreeeaaams, dreaaaaaams..

btw, this song has the BEST, SAXOPHONE, SOLO, EVER.
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[08 Jul 2005|07:15pm]

hmm, figure i should upate. not much going on. i met the adorable slurp  again. was nice..

i went to some r&r off from the army. went to some crappy beach reggae party in herzelia, not that i like reggae, its not dancable, but i ate french fries and drank beer. and saw lots of nice girls. eh eh eh.

i really need a girl. the last few weeks have been complete, strong, unstoppable horniness. god, with all the girls wearing short skirts and eh..

this song rocks, 80's style samples with some cool rappers rapping it up, and eh. they should make more new songs with 80's funky samples. brits rock. it sucks that they had this terror explosion in london. fucking rats..

now again i was in some wedding beach party near netanya, i drank a shot of jager before i left, i feel it now, in my head. woo! california knows how to party!

not much else....

a request - if you read this lj, please reply.... i want to know who's still around and who's not.

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[13 Jun 2005|02:44pm]
i just wanted to mention that GTA SAN ANDREAS fucking rocks and rockstar, the company who made all the gta's, are kings of the world.

vice city was and is still my favourite game, but san andreas is shaping up now also to get into the place. it's fucking huge, and i mean huge! three cities, every city is GRANDIOZE, and you can travel through the three of them, there are small towns, forests, mountains, lots of secrets.

and lots of good music, no 80's galore like vice city, but still...

that's it.. i may be getting a one week vacation from the army soon, i'll update about it.
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[03 Jun 2005|02:28am]
im still around.. not so much going on..

i guess i'll post a big update soon, army takes all of my time, but i have to preserve this lj!
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[18 Apr 2005|05:16pm]
well, im going for two weeks..
army sucks.. most of the time..

now im going to guard in some kibbutz in south israel, i hope it'll be ok, and nice.. idf duty..
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